Sometimes discovering the truth can leave you more hopeless than believing the lies…
That’s what seventeen-year-old Sky realizes after she meets Dean Holder. A guy with a reputation that rivals her own and an uncanny ability to invoke feelings in her she’s never had before. He terrifies her and captivates her all in the span of just one encounter, and something about the way he makes her feel sparks buried memories from a past that she wishes could just stay buried.
Sky struggles to keep him at a distance knowing he’s nothing but trouble, but Holder insists on learning everything about her. After finally caving to his unwavering pursuit, Sky soon finds that Holder isn’t at all who he’s been claiming to be. When the secrets he’s been keeping are finally revealed, every single facet of Sky’s life will change forever.
Hopeless was nothing like what I had expected. It was intense, dark, emotional, and heart-breaking, but also very beautiful and inspirational. I was struggling between loving it and hating it – you can just say I’m somewhere in between, leaning a tad bit more towards loving it (hence, the 3.5 stars).
I liked Sky a lot. I loved how she was struggling with feelings (mainly, lust and passion). Even though she makes out with guys, she has never experienced the fluttering-butterflies-in-her-tummy feeling before. It was like she was blocking out any physical and/or emotional connection from the guys she made out with. I also loved how she knew so little about technology and lived her life in her books.
“My lack of access to the real world has been replaced completely by books, and it can’t be healthy to live in a land of happily ever afters.”
“One of the things I love about books is being able to define & condense certain portions of a character’s life into chapters. It’s intriguing, because you can’t do this with real life. You can’t just end a chapter, then skip the things you don’t want to live through, only to open it up to a chapter that better suits your mood. Life can’t be divided into chapters…only minutes. The events of your life are all crammed together one minute right after the other without any time lapses or blank pages or chapter breaks because no matter what happens life just keeps going and moving forward and words keep flowing & truths keep spewing whether you like it or not and life never lets you pause and just catch your fucking breath.”
“I need one of those chapter breaks. I just want to catch my breath, but I have no idea how.”
I also loved Sky and Holder’s unspoken non-committed exclusive confusing non-relationship. I loved how they both knew they had undeniably strong feeling for each other right off the bat but didn’t say the three big words to each other until closer towards the end.
“Breckin, this is Holder. Holder is not my boyfriend, but if I catch him trying to break the record for best first kiss with another girl, then he’ll soon be my not breathing non-boyfriend.”
“I want to tell you exactly how I feel but there isn’t a single goddamned word in the entire dictionary that can describe this point between liking you and loving you, but I need that word. I need it because I need you to hear me say it.”
I didn’t hate him, but I didn’t connect with his character that much. I can’t really describe in words the exact reason why I didn’t like him as much – he was just too wordy, too sweet, too expressive.
“Sky, if you’re wondering if I have commitment issues, the answer is no. Someday in the far, far, far away future…like post-college future…when I propose to you…which I will be doing one day because you aren’t getting rid of me…I won’t be marrying you with the hope that our marriage will work out. When you become mine, it’ll be a forever thing. I’ve told you before that the only thing that matters to me with you are the forevers, and I mean that.”
“All marriages have a time limit if you enter them for the wrong reasons. Marriage doesn’t get easier…it only gets harder. If you marry someone hoping it will improve things, you might as well set your timer the second you say, ‘I do.”
I have to admit though, he had his sweep-me-off-my-feet moments.
“The moment my lips touch yours, it will be your first kiss. Because if you’ve never felt anything when someone’s kissed you, then no one’s ever really kissed you. Not the way I plan on kissing you.”
“F#%k all the firsts, Sky. The only thing that matters to me with you are the forevers.”
You fell asleep right when she was about to find out her mother’s secret. How dare you. I’ll be back tomorrow night so you can finish reading it to me. And by the way, you have really bad breath and you snore way too loud.
I also liked both Six and Breckin. I just love their personalities and their role in the book. They’re both hilarious and they balanced the seriousness of the story with their humor.
“Lust is the best of all the deadly sins.”
Holder gives him a half smile, but he’s staring at the coffee cup on Breckin’s desk. “I thought Mormons weren’t allowed to have caffeine.”
Breckin shrugs. “I decided to break that rule the morning I woke up gay.”
During the first few chapters, I saw all the signs and the clues telling you that it will be a very predictable, corny, silly, funny story leading to a happily ever after. I was ready to give up on the book and give it a 1.5-star rating because aside from the immature conversations and interactions between the characters and the fact that Holder was slowly starting to piss me off, I thought I had it all figured out – only to know in the end that I wasn’t even close. It was very unpredictable – dark, heart-breaking, and a tad bit sick if you ask me. The big twist in the end was what made me give it a higher rating that what I was going to give it originally.
I recommend this to mature adults who are looking to read a heavy drama – and a bit dark and sickening – contemporary romance. It is somewhat inspiring and uplifting in the end.
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