Finding My Reason
by Claudia Burgoa
It was only supposed to be a one-night stand at a wedding.
I was supposed to have fun and move on.
But she infused my life with light and laughter.
Now I can’t breathe at the thought of her ever being out of my life.
Being apart from her suffocates me.
We agreed to stay together, until we didn’t make each other happy.
I wasn’t afraid of and, I was afraid of but. But what if I’m not enough for her to stay?
I met this guy I really wanted to kiss.
I thought he was going to be just a crush who became my dream boy.
A perfect, delusional dream I would keep in my heart until I had my life in order.
He made me feel like I could take over the world.
I wasn’t supposed to fall in love.
We agreed to stay together, until one of us wanted something different.
I wasn’t scared of but, I was scared of and. And what if he leaves?
And our fairy tale came to an end.
But did it have to end or can we find a reason to stay?
Will she forgive you? I don’t know, but one wrong word or move, and I’ll feed your remains to the bears.
Son, no one wants a relationship based on ‘good enough.’ Good enough is for children’s art projects and quitters.
The only tip my best friend gave me was: She’s always right. Any wrong move and she’ll try to claw your eyes out.
Today my life sounds like a shitty soap opera where I’m the next character to get killed…
Not being a big fan of either angst or constant drama, I was more than a bit miserable while reading Finding My Reason, however, I couldn’t stop reading… The writing was frequently amusing, engaging, sensual, and well-paced, yet it was also generally angsty and emotive with a storyline that made my heart hurt – but I couldn’t stop reading… I felt on edge and tense through the majority of the book and frequently cursed Ms. Burgoa’s skill for poignancy and emotional depth. The protagonists shared an instant attraction, sizzling sensual chemistry, and an epic love for one another – although, they were both also deeply flawed by their experiences, stubborn, insecure, anxious, and rather immature creatures who grew to want and need different things from their relationship. I was near despair and wanting to bludgeon Hudson with my kindle before he finally experienced his epiphany and stopped being an asshat. It took a bit longer for Jade to cease being short-sighted and delusional until they finally achieved that much-desired HEA – but Ms. Burgoa certainly made them work for it. I believe my next read needs to be light and fluffy to allow my poor coronary muscle to unclench.
About the Author
She now lives in Colorado working for a small IT company, managing her household filled with three confused dogs, said nerd husband, two daughters wrought with fandoms and a son who thinks he’s the boss of the house. To survive she works continually to find purpose for the voices flitting through her head, plus she consumes high quantities of chocolate to keep the last threads of sanity intact.